insomnia

it's a bummer, but here I sit alone with my random sleepless stream of consciousness and a keyboard. insomnia means watching Jimmy Fallon who I've decided is funny and kind of adorable. and the trailer for the new harry potter movie reminds me that I sorta really want to go to Universal Studios Orlando and I feel a bit geekish about it. and the movie trailer reminds me that I saw "RED" over the weekend and really liked it and Bruce Willis is hot awesome and Helen Mirren is fabulous.
And that was our fourth date of 2010. I think that's one more than last year. And it only happened because the in-laws were in town and (I'm sure to their regret) volunteered to tend the little ones. So Mr. J doesn't get credit for it. Our last date was for his birthday in August, and the last one before that was a work-function that he was required to attend so it sorta doesn't even count as a date.
What a fine testament of his love for me, this zero motivation to go out. Some couples/parents of small children who go out every week or take weekend getaways or lengthy over-seas vacations and it boggles my mind. It's like an alternate universe. Seriously.
Then I wonder if I could bring myself to leave my babes for a few days if the opportunity presented itself. Don't know.
And right this minute I'd really love to turn my brain off and stop ruminating on the massive organize-the-office project that is never ever done but it's overwhelming and I'd love to stop wondering if I'll have time to sweep, vacuum and mop tomorrow and if Piglet will be agreeable in the morning and why oh why doesn't he obey? and how much food will Nanuk toss across the kitchen and did I buy enough treats and why do I have to dust my furniture every single day and where did all this laundry come from and I wonder if I'd look good in skinny jeans but when would I be able to go jeans-shopping anyway? Stop, brain, stop!
Sleep, where are you? The children will be making their boisterous demands on me in 6.5 hours. If I could fall asleep right now I might get just enough shut-eye to function.
This bright glowing monitor probably isn't helping matters. Time to try something else.